Contradictions

18 Nov

Just because I wrestle you with all of my strength does not mean that I want to win.

My triumph is knowing that even though you can always overpower me, you’ll never truly hurt me.

Just because I try to push you away doesn’t mean that I really want you to stay away.

I sometimes build the walls around me to see if and how you will climb them.

Just because I kneel at your feet doesn’t mean I’m undeserving to be by your side.

I know that you are a man worthy of my submission. My ability to kneel before you allows me to walk confidently and proudly beside you.

Just because I want you to spank me, punish me, discipline me, doesn’t mean that I am a bad person.

I am so good, in fact, that I deserve your attention, your focus. You see my potential and you hold me accountable to my goals. My light, already bright, burns stronger in your care.

Just because I hungrily take all that you are willing to give doesn’t mean that my desires are born of selfishness.

The more you give me, the more I have to give you. When I think I have nothing left, you, like a magician, find more — pulling one vibrant scarf after another out of my empty hat, each more brilliant than the one before.

14 Responses to “Contradictions”

  1. command November 18, 2010 at 12:45 pm #

    Next to my side, on your knees, behind me in support, over my lap: However you look at us, your place is with me. We are better together than we are apart.

  2. Scarlet November 18, 2010 at 1:46 pm #

    Beautiful, Pink. You have a way of writing right to the heart of things. I love reading here.

  3. Erica November 18, 2010 at 2:03 pm #

    Wow. You know what? That actually made me tear up. Swear to god. How do you do that?

  4. barely.pink November 18, 2010 at 2:24 pm #

    D, I couldn't have said it better or agreed more.Scarlet, it is so wonderful having you here. I think we have Poppy to thank for that (among other things…like her last post). Thank you!Erica, well I hope it's not one of those "Fukitol" days and that my words did touch you in some way…It means a lot knowing that. 🙂

  5. Michael November 18, 2010 at 4:25 pm #

    WOW, Pink, excellent, excellent, excellent! This was especially meaningful – "Just because I kneel at your feet doesn't mean I'm undeserving to be by your side."TTWD is full of contradictions, but as I have said before, it takes a strong person to submit. Stronger than the Top. I have the utmost respect for my Season, for you, and for all who have that fortitude to cede control and let the power of submission bath over you in satisfaction and happiness.

  6. Viola November 18, 2010 at 4:49 pm #

    This is wonderful, Pink, and so so true in so many ways 🙂

  7. Nakedjaebird November 18, 2010 at 7:13 pm #

    Pink. I'm in love with you.Beautiful, amazing, like always. I am never dissapointed on your blog.

  8. sierraslilcorner November 18, 2010 at 7:38 pm #

    Well said! It made me smile in so many ways… and identify so very deeply with. Thanks for that 🙂

  9. paddlemepink November 18, 2010 at 8:06 pm #

    I found her first Nakedjaebird! Just kidding of course.Love the post Pink…wonderful as always.PMP

  10. Bonnie-jo November 19, 2010 at 12:47 am #

    Great wrestling pic! I love the way your mind thinks. I've wondered at some of these ironic truths…and you've said some things I've never thought about before. Like the thing about "I am so good, in fact, that I deserve your attention, your focus". That sounds like an awesome and healthy mindset.

  11. ronnie November 19, 2010 at 4:54 am #

    How do you do it Pink, wonderful."I know that you are a man worthy of my submission. My ability to kneel before you allows me to walk confidently and proudly beside you." Love it. Thank you.Love,Ronniexx

  12. barely.pink November 19, 2010 at 8:59 am #

    Michael, thank you. While I admit that it takes strength to submit, I also don't envy the top's position — they are imperfect, as anyone, but there must be more pressure than usual to be wise, judicious and strong. Viola, thanks cutie pie. :)Jae, aw shucks. :)Sierra, yey! I got it right! I deserve a massage.PMP, no fighting you two! You know what corners are for. 🙂 Thank you!Bonnie-jo, I have a ton of wrestling pics. I think I've discovered a whole new kink that trips my trigger. :)Ronnie, I'm happy you think it is wonderful. Can you pass that along to D and tell him that I deserve something special? I really could use that massage I was talking about. :)Thanks for your comments, everyone, and have a great weekend!

  13. Pandora June 8, 2011 at 8:11 am #

    I keep coming back to this post. I love it. This thing we do is so full of paradoxes, and this expresses them perfectly. Particularly, the elements of topping that are about service, and the elements of bottoming that are about courage, and the honour each person does the other with both. The more you think about topping and bottoming, the more apparent the similarities are – very much two sides of the same coin.

    • Barely Pink June 8, 2011 at 7:07 pm #

      That is a wonderful way of seeing things, Pandora, and I think very true. Both roles require the same kind of strength, but exerted differently.

      It makes me happy that you enjoy this post. Thank you!

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